Personal Trauma Just Can’t Be Explained

It can only be understood when experienced firsthand

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When I think about some of the biggest moments that have happened so far in my life, they vary anywhere from moments of happiness and sadness to excitement and heartbreak.

Whether it was starting a new job or moving to a new apartment, starting a new relationship or getting over a breakup, I’ve always been able to explain the feelings that I felt while they were happening.

However, when it comes to deeply tragic and traumatizing moments, those are always so much more complex to talk about.

Those are the ones that you’re always going to be more reluctant to share because they’re so much more difficult to explain in words. And right now, I’m in that process of experiencing a traumatic moment and I’m personally finding it hard to explain it to other people unless they’ve been there themselves.

I recently lost my Dad to cancer just a few weeks ago and I’m in a weird place of trying to piece together the rollercoaster of emotions that I’ve been having. I’m just trying my best to make sense of it all.

But it’s nearly impossible.

As I’ve been reflecting on this tragedy and trying to process all of my emotions, I’m in such shock to realize how…