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I Really Thought That 2021 Couldn’t Get Any Worse…But, It Did
You think that things will go one way, but they go in a completely opposite direction — and that pretty much sums up life.
When I look back at when the pandemic first began, I try my hardest to find any tiny sliver of positivity or happiness that I can remember. Then, when I find them, I do my very best to hold onto those fleeting moments of joy and rare silver linings.
I think about all of the things that I should be grateful for — my health, my marriage, my family, my friends, my job. Hell, just typing all of that out right now, I can’t help but ask myself how I could not be grateful? After all, I’m alive, aren’t I?
I’m surviving through a pandemic. And for that, I indeed am truly grateful. But, that doesn’t erase or change the enormous amounts of pain and grief that I’ve experienced throughout.
Back in March 2020, I never would have thought that we’d still be in the same exact situation that we started in. I never would have thought that we would take so many steps forward just to take twice as many back.
It’s been an uphill battle that we’re continuing to lose. And in the midst of the pandemic, my own world was crumbling simultaneously.
