I can relate to this so much, Vena. My Dad was in and out of the hospital 3 times in the past 3 months until he finally passed. The past 3 months have felt so surreal and it's been impossible to find the motivation to do anything. I shut out my friends, coworkers, everyone - I didn't have the heart to talk about what was going on because it was too hard. I do hope you find your groove back, though it may take time (I personally don't know when I'll get out of my own funk). Sending strength and love your way